Difficult Time
Sandman1am
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I'm not one that usually complains or asks for simpathy but this is something that has been bothering me for going on 3 weeks. I'm on paid administrative leave from work right now for something that happened.
Before anyone asks no I didn't kill anyone and no one is hurt. Actually I'm greatful that I still have my health. It was bad the first 2 weeks but I had my dad here so it helped to have someone to talk to and stay busy with. This past week has been the worst because I don't have anyone during the day. I try to stay busy but there is only so much I can do before I start thinking about it again.
I've heard from many different people that things will be alright and that I should be back to work soon. Easy for them to say when they are there working and not having to worry about possibly losing their job. I will say that I now know who my true friends are. Not know what will happen is the hard part for me right now. If I need to look for another job I would like to know now so I can start looking, if not then that's great.
I do not know how long this is going to take. I am hoping that this is over quickly so I can just move on. I've learned what I need from this and will apply it the next time I'm in this situation. I just wanted to get that off my chest and thank you BORK's for listening. I don't know why but I felt that if I got it out there I would feel better.
Before anyone asks no I didn't kill anyone and no one is hurt. Actually I'm greatful that I still have my health. It was bad the first 2 weeks but I had my dad here so it helped to have someone to talk to and stay busy with. This past week has been the worst because I don't have anyone during the day. I try to stay busy but there is only so much I can do before I start thinking about it again.
I've heard from many different people that things will be alright and that I should be back to work soon. Easy for them to say when they are there working and not having to worry about possibly losing their job. I will say that I now know who my true friends are. Not know what will happen is the hard part for me right now. If I need to look for another job I would like to know now so I can start looking, if not then that's great.
I do not know how long this is going to take. I am hoping that this is over quickly so I can just move on. I've learned what I need from this and will apply it the next time I'm in this situation. I just wanted to get that off my chest and thank you BORK's for listening. I don't know why but I felt that if I got it out there I would feel better.
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¨Only two people walk around in this world beardless - boys and women - and I am neither one.¨
¨Only two people walk around in this world beardless - boys and women - and I am neither one.¨
Too many of my friends have sat in jail for things they didn't do or for doing what they truly thought was the right thing to do. Some got out, some are still rotting. We think as police officers that we're insulated somehow from ever ending up like the criminals we deal with every day. But it only takes one unfortunate incident........
I keep this poem framed on my wall. I read it almost every day... Hope it helps:
If....
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!
by Rudyard Kipling
Tony, if you ever need to talk to someone that'll understand your situation, feel free to PM me your info. Anytime, bro......
"If you do not read the newspapers you're uninformed. If you do read the newspapers, you're misinformed." -- Mark Twain
I still do not have much else that I can pass on as it seems to be a waiting game as of right now. As things develop I will let you all know. I am hoping to find out very soon what will happen with this particular situation.
What I do know is that I am thankful for all of the BORK's here. Even with all of differeces you all have helped me, and others on this forum, through some very difficult times. No words can express the feelings of knowing that we are a family here....like it or not (lol).
Thank you once again and keep the thoughts and prayers coming.
While I am still on leave right now this was very positive for me. The big boss didn't have to call me to get my pick in. Any one of the many supervisors at work could have called and asked me for my vacation pick. She didn't have to say any of those things to me about coming back to work. I do not think that she would have called me at all, much less said that unless she knew that I would be coming back to work soon. I'm not out of the woods yet but things have started to look up.
Thank you all for your support and please keep the thoughts and prayers coming my friends.
http://www.suntimes.com/news/metro/2837796,chicago-cops-sue-jody-weis-slander-102610.article
Just thought I'd let you know that there's some success stories out there....
If you haven't already checked it out, go to secondcitycop.blogspot.com More uplifting and head-scratching stuff on there.
It really sucks to go out and see people who I work with. I often wonder what they are thinking and if they are talking smack behind my back or if they are supporting me. Then I remember it doesn't matter they are co-workers and not my family and most are not my friends. Those who are my friends are supportive and have made that known to me.
Please keep the thoughts and prayers coming. Now onto a new project to keep me busy.
What happened to the joke thread?????
¨Only two people walk around in this world beardless - boys and women - and I am neither one.¨