This is hell
On Weds morning, I finally had surgery I've been waiting for, for 2 years. Turns out I did less ligament damage and more joint f'ing up than previously thought. Thankfully this means less recovery time (So I'll be about to have a cigar again by the end of Jan, but unfortunately it means a lot more pain during the recovery. I haven't had surgery since i was 16, so I don't remember much about the days after surgery, but I'm in hell right now. The pain killers I've been on have been messing with my head (cant remember what I've told to who, keep waking up in a panic for some reason, and I currently haven't been able to tell when things have been in a realistic dream here in my room or if I was actually awake). I've had enough of it and I stopped the pain killers. Now everything hurts, from my shoulders to my neck, all of the muscles around my neck, my right shoulder, left shoulder a lil, muscles in my chest, hips, and back. Rolling over in bed makes my body feel like I'm in a compactor. I swear it feels like i was literally hit by a car. The irony to this all is that I have a really high tolerance for pain (was a hardcore wrestler who loved using barbed wire, thumb tacs, and even a staple gun to the head in matches. When I initially damaged my knee to need this surgery, I was at work 4 days later, even though I couldn't bend my knee for just shy of a month. I don't even know why I'm writing this. I guess I just needed to vent. But for anyone who actually read this, Is it normal for your whole body to hurt like this after surgery? Also, for anyone who read this drugged up post, I'm sorry I just took away 5 min of your life, and I guess I owe you a stick haha.